paper white narcissus

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Feeling overwhelmed by end-of-year reviews, musings and news montages, I escaped to my studio to do a bit of playing with fabric. Quick, non-judgmental, spontaneous cutting and stitching. Time well spent.

My Bernina is cleaned and ready for a fresh start in the new year, but I really don’t put much stock in the turning of a calendar page. But still, that is how the world operates. Our shift into 2021 may be fraught with a bit of peril, and I for one do not want to “go back to the way things used to be”.

I envision more heart work, more deep learning, more sacrifice…

And perhaps in 2020 we have all learned what is most precious to us, what most needs our attention, where we can make the greatest difference.

So, tomorrow let us take a deep breath, turn to the challenges that face us and step forward with love and courage and hope in our hearts.

xo

accompaniment and walking meditation

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Last night I joined a zoom call with 10,000 other people around the world to listen in on a conversation with Krista Tippett, Lucas Johnson and Pádraig Ó Tuama of On Being. It was quite moving and inspiring. “A Midwinter Gathering” was convened on the Winter Solstice to allow those attending to consider the impact this past year has had on all of us. It created a holding space for the fullness of the year and to make room for quiet reflection.

One of the things that these three companions spoke of was “accompaniment”, a concept that I delighted in…being present to one another, being non-judgmental, keeping one another company on the journey of life.

In that spirit, I invite you to join me on one of my walking meditations. Perhaps I can offer you some accompaniment on my walk. Meditation is a practice, and I am still learning, but, come along, if you like…

As the afternoon begins to fade, I bundle up (because this is December in Vermont). I step outside and walk out to see our view. I plant my feet in the snow and raise my arms over my head and inhale the cold air, oh so very deeply. I exhale slowly. I do this a few times, reaching higher to the sky each time. Then I begin to walk, slowly, listening to my boots crunch in the snow. I walk for a bit to the edge of the balsam forest and as I step into the deep woods I smell the scent of evergreens. I stop and listen to the sigh of the branches as the breeze comes through. Old snow falls from branches in a soft scattering. Some of the beech trees that grow along the edge of the path still have a few leaves on them, and they rattle in the breeze. The birds are flitting above me and scolding me for my trespassing.

I walk a bit more and begin to notice all the tracks in the snow. Deer have wandered through, snuffling among the low hanging balsam branches, looking for pockets of tasty bits under the snow. Rabbit footprints weave between the deer tracks. A coyote wandered through at some point. And still the birds flit overhead. Now a raven perches atop one of the tallest balsams, alerting all the wood dwellers of my intrusion. I walk along, noticing that I am warming up, that my heart is working harder, even though I am walking at a moderate pace.

As I come out into the meadow, the view opens up and for the millionth time, I am amazed that this is where I live. The winter greens, blues, grays and browns spread out in front of me and it begins to snow again. It snows nearly every afternoon I walk, usually light flurries. I walk past the hoop house, all closed up for the winter, and the snow fence that protects the blueberry bushes. As the afternoon sun wanes along the tops of the mountains, it creates deeper shadows along my path.

I stop again and listen. A truck grinds through its gears down in the valley. The wind has picked up, and a neighboring rooster crows (he is often confused about the time of day).

My last bit of walking brings me to the edge of the tent platform, where I hoist myself up onto the wooden deck and spend a few minutes in a deeper mediation. As I sit still and as the wind picks up, I realize it’s time to get moving again.

I get to the bird feeders near the house and stand as still as I can. Often the chickadees fly right past me, and I can hear the rush of their tiny wings, and feel the air stir as they pass. I am fascinated by those who can feed birds from their hands. That is on my “to do” list for 2021.

I stomp my boots off on the porch and as I step into the house my glasses fog up. I feel so much better than when I headed out just a bit ago.

And I hope that if you have read this far, maybe you too feel a tiny bit better.

Namaste friends.

opening ourselves to "yes"

gorgeous fabric from spoonflower, designed by Anne Butera.I “met” Anne about ten tears ago. We became blogging buddies and fast friends. Over the years, we have kept track of one another…our dreams, our rough patches, our projects and we’ve exchange…

gorgeous fabric from spoonflower, designed by Anne Butera.

I “met” Anne about ten tears ago. We became blogging buddies and fast friends. Over the years, we have kept track of one another…our dreams, our rough patches, our projects and we’ve exchanged snail mail, too. I admire the journey Anne has been on, becoming a self-taught artist, a teacher, and savvy business woman. She is a watercolorist and translates some of her work into fabric designs and merchandise. Her passion for gardening inspired the fabric (above) which has found its way into some of the pieces I sew.

When I was feeling some traction for upping my web presence, I turned to one of Anne’s Skillshare classes, Beginners Guide to Launching Your Artist Website . It helped my get my ideas organized and started me on my way. Anne turned my hesitancy and self doubt into action.

The thing I love most about Anne is the way she networks with, and mentors other creative people. This fall, she reached out to me to see if I might be willing to be part of her Sips of Inspiration series. This series highlights artists and the many ways they find inspiration. I balked at first, with all sorts of resistance, with the silly “I’m not a real artist”, and “I don’t have anything important to say” demons in my head. Anne was quietly and gently persistent, and finally I took a deep breath and said “OK”.

We spoke last week, and our conversation was a delight! Anne kept the conversation easygoing and relaxed. Today Anne posted the interview on her blog and IG account. I invite you to check it out here.

I am so very grateful to Anne for her friendship, her encouragement, her faith in me and for asking me to step out of my comfort zone. She helped me open up to possibilities in myself that I did not yet see and say “yes”. That, my friends, is a gift!

Narnia and sachets and good listens

Sometimes we feel like we live in Narnia. This morning we woke up to the sound of the snowplow clearing the road. In my drowsiness I imagined talking woodland creatures, boxes of Turkish delight and lamp posts in the snow.

It’s mid-afternoon now, and it’s still snowing. I love it. Plain and simple.

With overgrown balsam trees climbing up our hill, we have plenty of supplies to make wreaths, garlands and offer smaller trees for cut-your-own fundraisers to local not-for-profits. And why not make fragrant balsam sachets to share the signature scent of our “bit of earth”?

This sachet was stitched for a friend last week. I used cotton fabric I had dyed with yellow onion skins, using a resist technique with clothespins. Sachets can be tossed onto the dashboard of your vehicle, they can be stashed in a closet, tucked at your bedside, or buried in a basket of woolen mittens and hats.

I’ll have a batch of balsam sachets in my shop when it opens. :-)

Some things I’m looking forward to that you may enjoy as well…

  • Tammy’s Barn Chat at A Wing and a Prayer Farm on Saturday. Tammy will be talking with slow fashion advocates, stitch activists and authors Sonya Philip and Katrina Rodabaugh.

  • A Midwinter Gathering with Krista Tippett and Lucas Johnson on the evening of the Solstice.

And check back tomorrow for something I’m very excited about.